Friday, July 30, 2010

Olive U

Love comes unexpectedly, quietly. It comes despite your intentions to find it or to chase it away. It dispels the destructive lie of the fairytale. It is impossibly imperfect. It fucks up your vision of your charming prince on the white horse. You get your prince, but he rides forward on a nasty old mare with a ratty tail. Your prince may take your hand, gentle and strong, but his hair is all wrong and he smells like the mare he rode in on. He may gracefully dismount that horse and tell you that you are the most lovely creature he has set eyes upon, all while silently farting.

Love doesn’t replace reality. Love simply makes reality a little more bearable. Or less, depending on the day.

Love is never based on need and always based on want. That want should burn, slow and even like an ember. It will not come to you unless, somewhere in your soul, you believe you deserve it. If you do not hold that essential truth, all of the love you attract will ring false. You will wonder why the shine always wears off. Find the deserving you, nurture it. That is the one and only perfect love, because it will attract your match as dust motes to a beam of sun.

Love is wearing your worst old sweat pants while doing chores and not caring how you look. Love is dirty dishes, squeezing toothpaste from the middle of the tube, putting the toilet paper on backwards. It is falling into bed, exhausted and filthy and safe. It is falling asleep with another person in the bed and for the first time, sleeping without fear. Love is knowing that sex isn’t always great, isn’t always frequent, but also isn’t a chore. Love scrubs toilets, prepares meals that take hours and doing so after your partner’s snoring has kept you up all night.

It is knowing, that you aren’t always right, but that you always strive to be true. When you fail at that, you suck it up, say you’re sorry, mean it and do better next time. It is granting forgiveness before it is asked for. It is never promising to not hurt the other, because you will. Again and again, intentionally, unintentionally. But, it is trying, with your best intention and integrity to not do so. It is accepting that you too, will hurt. You will get hurt. You will drop your grudge, your shield, your weapons and grant the same forgiveness you seek.

Love is forgetting.

Forgetting old wounds, old wars and being present. It is stepping forward in each moment, it is restful. It is manic. It is all screwy. But it remains. It connects, not to your head and not to your heart. Both of those entities lie in their own way, for their own reasons. It connects with your gut, settles in tandem with your intuition.

It holds you in your weakness and leaves you breathless. It changes you and changes them and yet solidifies what is integral in each. It is sometimes underwhelming, while being utterly remarkable. It is the soul, finding what it can cling to, what gives not purpose, but reward.

Love is a reward. It is the only trophy that it is more work to maintain than it is to win.

It is fundamental, but it is never what we think it will be.

It is always more.

Thursday, July 22, 2010


I came here today by myself for a reason. I didn't want anyone to see it. The Packing up.  I needed some time alone with my home.

It's a wonder I've been procastinating....:S It's an overwhelming thing....moving your life. All my papers and clothes. Stuff. I needed to be alone for a bit with it all... But still...I thought I'd share the raw of it.

Onward and upward!!

Ok...That's just me being positive.

To be honest, I have to dig deep to keep the smile on about this one. It's using a portion of my strength that's fo sho.

I get mad about having to leave it behind. My big mistake mocking me from the empty walls. The boxes everywhere now holding old and new dreams. About how much it's cost me. Grrrr....frustrating, disappointing. I feel like I could grab a sharpie and write Breakable on all the boxes.

...I want to know if you can live with failure

yours and mine

and still stand at the edge of the lake

and shout to the silver of the full moon,


~© Oriah Mountain Dreamer, The Invitation,

Afterward, I made this place all daugheter and mine. I painted the wall blue late one night. I let my ideas flow, and did exactly as I wanted. Liberating....fresh. And so everywhere, in every lil' nook, it became our home. Within these walls we learned to keep going. I found my self again. Or for the first time.
In my peaceful again, lavender bedroom I had made my sanctuary from the outside that was continuously falling, I re-built my life from the inside out. In my soothing bathroom, I warmed up....

And now it's time to put it all in boxes, move it, and not look back.
I am ready. I accept it, and look forward to the next chapter in the saga.

Push forward. Never, ever give up. It's a Journey.

One may go a long way after one is tired. ~French Proverb

But... thats not to say that packing it up isn't hardwork.

Of which I must do.

People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them. ~G.B. Shaw, Mrs. Warren's Profession, 1893

Girled Gems

 Poking around deep in zee ol' interwoods...rustled me up some right nice gems. Some linxes, other bloggers who are stellar, some moving pictures and sweet still ones ,some melodies, and some little people too!

Check it out y'all!

Found this on Yes and Yes! Sarah Von Rocks!

Your secret from Jean-Sebastien Monzani on Vimeo.

Teeny Tiny and Totally Awesome!!!!

Alert the presses!! The end of the rainbow found!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Should have.......This Shirt:

Hall and Oates Revival I had already predicted last fall


Studded Hearts

My new friend Jen lead me here....

Te he!!

Favorite Musical Find of the Week

We be jammin....

My Other Favorite Musical Find of the Week

Washing Hands Would be what all  the Cool Cats Do With if they had this:

Catching up! Watching Season 4 while I pack

I have this on my wall:

To Take a Vacation to here with you!

To paint a window

 Freckles from the Sunshine

We should so put this in our bathroom someday??? PLEASE!

 and these tables too?

A photo shoot like this someday!

CBC Radio. Been Learning and Listening

Seeing Buffy Sainte Marie on Sunday!!

I think it would be awesome to have a turtle for a pet. I would name him Dan. After Dan Aykoryd. At least this one kinda looks like Dan Aykoryd

Our actual new pet:

 Wanna see this:



and of course this...

Flowers blooming in the sun


Indeed Plus 1



Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I moustache you a question

Have I exclaimed my love for Kind Over Matter? Or moustaches? And parties? Theme parties?
Well....put all of those together and what have you got?
Bibbity boppity boo....

Guess who's SO doing this????

And guess whom will have SO much fun, AND post pictures???

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Ol' Skewl

Been missing some of my besties this week!! Well, I miss them ALL the time. I really do wish I could put them in my pocket and take them everywhere. But since that's impossible (someday, someday, someone will invent this machine) I indulged in some good ol' memories. Songs, scents and some 90's fashion to take me back to the future, where I reminsce about the days when we were crazy kids!

"...taking ya back to the ol' skewl, cuz I'm an ol' fool, who's so cool...."

The Songs

And SOO much more!
May I suggest a few for you to check out?

1.Mr. Vain
2. The Train, by the Quad City DJ's
3. Vengaboys
4.Steal my Sunshine by Len
5.Jiggy Wit It- Will Smith
6.Crush-Jennifer Paige
7.Show Me Love -Robyn
8. Tub Thumping- Chumbawumba
9. Ace of Base
10. Blue
11. Billy Ray Cyrus
12. Shania Twain
13. Say My Name -Destiny's Child
14. Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
15. Lullabye
16.Miami -Will Smith
17.Peter Pumpkin Head
18. Nirvana

The Shows and the Fashion

Beverly Hills 90210, Mom Jeans and Tucked-In Tees

Saved By the Bell and the Zack

Married With Children, Kelly Bundy, the cropped top, baggy jeans, and long necklace
Melrose Place

Party of Five

Cindy Crawford, the belly button jeans, big hair, and mole

The Movies

The Smells

Calvin Klien Obsession
Calvin Klien Eternity, and CK One
Calvin had the monopoly on perfume in the 90's

Love's Baby Soft

What Could be found in my Caboodle

The Caboodle
Aussie Sprunch Spray
Cover Girl Cocoa Bean

Outrageous Shampoo/Conditioner

The Great Lash

Scrunchies Galore

Maybelline Kissing Koolers

Missing you in 2010!

What reminds you of the 90's?