Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Something new everyday

Half of 2010 is over.
Things I've Learned, Just This First Part of the Year Include (but are in no way limited to):

1. How to purchase a lotto ticket. And that the numbers in the daily news horoscope are unlucky.

2. I CAN love again. Even better in fact! It's possible to meet your soul mate, even after you thought you already did.

3. Teenagers brains aren't all there. By this I mean they are still growing. The part that controls logic, morals etc. Explains much. Here's a good site about that:


4. I am stronger, than even I knew before.

5. Who my real friends are.

6. How to make: Cheesecake, red velvet cake, tofu I actually like, east indian fare,  and how not to blow the bbq up.

7.I am more patient, then even I knew before.

8. That no matter how old I am, I still cry when my parents leave. And I will always need them.

9. I don't like yogurt. And how to stop myself from forcing it down, just because it's good for me. I don't like it. I don't have to.

10. Some people change. For worse, or better. Some people don't. Either way, you can't make them.

11. Tony isn't the worst doggy ever. He pisses all over the floor, jizzes on my pillows, walks like a drunken sailor and drinks from the tub only, but he's not the worst dog ever.

12. Asking for help is a sign of strength, not weakness.

13. To let go. Of things I cannot control, of worry, of people that bring me down,

14. That I am not perfect. Weird, maybe even a touch crazy in-fact. And that's ok. I am me...and that's a great thing.

15. How to get mad. To say how I really feel. I will never again be a doormat. I can be kind, but that doesn't mean at the expense of what "I' need.

16. Head gaskets, lawyers, and styrofoam cones to make a replica CN tower cost a lot.

17. I still have much to learn...

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Back 2 the Place with Lace

There is many a graduation/end of school dances going on. If I were to attend I would channel my inner Pretty In Pink a la Molly Ringwald and wear this...sigh.

What I Will be Doing Tonight.....Ex-orcism

Some people just have the devil inside...OUT damn spot!

How to Perform an Exorcism | eHow.com

Canadian Kids Classics

Kids TV was so much better back in the day. Definetly wierd...but seriously better. Here is a look at the shows I remember as a kid...

Some Manitoba Talent. Fred Penner's Place was a staple for most Canadian kids. He is a rockin' fellar. Here, he seems a bit baked...but whatever. I dig Fred.

We also had Mr. Dress-Up. What a hoot! He was so talented...drawing, singing, making crafts, and of course dressing up in sweet threads provided by tickle trunk!! Casey and Finnigan were his lil' sidekick puppets. Love ya Mr.D-U!

"Look Waaaayyyyy Up and I'll call Rusty!" The Friendly Giant. Miniature things, a talking giraffe and chicken. What's not to love?

Who didn't want this strange lady saying your name?? She never did say "Pryncezz Sara is having a superwoman day I see!" Why?? I really wanted her too. Tell me do why didn't you?

Grover, is my favorite. His waiter persona is my so hilarious...of course!

Have a spiderman day!!
Stay cool kids!!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Tony & Yoda's Most Excellent Adventure

So this is what happens when we are all outta the house for the day:

Tony has his way with my pillows...errrrr. Uncool....

Then promtly passes out...

Balls out!

Yoda on the other hand is considerably more ambitious...

Climbing on things...

Smelling the roses...

Heading to the kitchen,

Nibbles on banana's

Tries to sneak out...

On his way to mess with the toy box upstairs...

Lunch time...

And now for some afternoon fun..

Slides off the petals

Plays in the mud..

And back to hanging out with Old Yoda for some deep thoughts...

Looks pretty narly to be Tony & Yoda. I will leave the nanny cam on and see what else happens during the day around here....those crazy kids!
To be continued......

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Penny Pryncezz

For the past several months I have been finding pennies...everywhere. Everyday, I either drop one, or find one. They fall outta my purse, the laundry, pants, jackets. It's like they jump out so I'll notice them. They are on the stairs, in my bed, under the floor mats, on the ground outside everywhere. I believe they mean good luck..but there are many!! So finally after months of speculating why they keep showing up I did some research on the topic. Here are some of my findings....

Consider the penny as a symbol of beginnings as it holds the vibration of number One.
meaning of One primarily deals with strong will, positivity, pure energy. The number One reflects new beginnings, and purity. The symbolic meaning of the penny (number One) is further clarified when we understand that One represents both kinds of action, physical and mental.
This combined with the One’s urgency for new beginnings, we intuit
number One to mean it is time to exert our natural forces, take action, and start a new venture. Numeral One gives us encouragement that our actions will be rewarded in kind.
Appropriate to the theme of new beginnings, we see Abraham Lincoln depicted on this currency. This is symbolic of founding fathers concept, and deals with foundational thoughts & constructs. Pulled more deeply in the meaning, we can say that seeing pennies (particularly heads-up) is a message for us to re-evaluate our founding beliefs. We may ask ourselves what core beliefs do we have, and are they serving us appropriately?
Copper also holds a symbolic resonance (at least when they were primarily made of copper prior to 1982) with the
astrological signs of Sagittarius and Taurus – you can investigate the attributes of these signs for further symbolism here.
Copper is also considered a solar emblem, and corresponds with the radiant
features of the sun. This combined with a myriad of other meanings, the symbolic meaning of the penny deals with bright ideas, fresh perspectives, and incorporating these new thoughts with our existing framework. By combining the old with the new we find our lives expanded and new directions to our path.

this from wiki answers:

Pennies symbolize many things. For instance:1. beginnings2. love and friendships-and even-3. the power of copper of kings and queens

This nice poem:

Found a penny today

Just laying on the ground.

But it's not just a penny,

this little coin I've found.

Found pennies come from heaven,
that's what my Grandpa told me.

He said Angels toss them down.

Oh, how I loved that story.

He said when an Angel misses you,

they toss a penny down.

Sometimes just to cheer you up,

to make a smile out of your frown.

So, don't pass by that penny,

when you're feeling blue.

It may be a penny from heaven,

that an Angel's tossed to you.

I have

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Oh Ya!

I believe that things happen for a reason. If you have been following my blog, you may have noticed my subtle or not so, hints that I have been struggling to remain my cheery self. Lots of stressors as of late. It's also been raining steady for weeks. I signed up to receive a Goddess email once a week. I like that kinda stuff. Anyway...coincidence or I think more like fate...I received this today. I believe I shall be invoking my inner OYA.

I work in ways deep
ever present
always moving
I work in ways dramatic
with thunder and lightning
sweeping and uprooting
I work in ways subtle
pushing and prodding
wearing and tearing
I swirl you and twirl you
I splatter you and scatter you
I shock you and rock you
I clear the way for what is to come
I can be slight or stupendous
brief or long lasting
uproaring or uprising
What I can't be is ignored

African goddess Oya is a Goddess of Storms. She represents feminine leadership - invoke Oya when you are in need of strength in your quest for leadership and authority.


  • Strength


  • Garnet, bloodstone, tourmaline, smoky quartz (red stones)


  • I trust the Universe to provide
  • It's OK to release my anger
  • There are rainbows in every rainfall
  • My new life path reveals itself to me
  • I relinquish destructive influences
  • I welcome Oya's recuperative power
Her Story

African deities (orishas) are usually represented by flowing, swirling images of colour and movement, depicting the elemental energies rather than an anthropomorphised image. Oya, goddess of storms, tempests and rain, dances in spirals representing tornadoes and wind - the winds of change, sweeping away the old in order to prepare for the new. She wreaks destruction in order to find and prepare for underlying calm.

She was the wife of Shango , Lord of Thunder and Fertility, and together they fight side by side creating thunder, lightning and destruction. She is goddess of the marketplace, bringing fortune to her patrons. And she is the only African orisha brave enough to confront death - she is goddess of funeral processions and cemeteries (cemeteries being known as "Oya's Garden").

Her Modern Energy

Oya embodies the fiery passion that is buried in the feminine psyche. Unleashed, she is warrior woman, armed and helmeted fighting injustice and forging victories. If you invoke Oya, be prepared to deal with the consequences! Or, if she is presenting herself to you in your life, be prepared to be tossed in her storms but be comforted in the knowledge that she is here to teach you about personal will and sense of purpose.

Mother of transformation, patron of feminine leadership, trust Oya to travel with you through this time of change. Welcome her lessons she is here to teach you, for without the rain we don't get rainbows (another symbol of Oya).

Oya is related to our base chakra, home of the kundalini energy. When our base chakra is in balance, we feel secure, alert, stable - our lives are full of active and positive energy. If you are not feeling like this, it is no wonder Oya is speaking to you today.

Reconnect With Your Inner Oya

Make a shrine to Oya with red foods such as plums, grapes and red wine, and on the next dark moon honour her in a meditation. Sit on the floor, close your eyes, and while nurturing a related gemstone, feel your spine grow and take root in the earth. Feel the strength of the earth energise your spine and your body. Reach up high and stretch for that rainbow that is formed over your head, arching over your body radiating love, calm, and protection. You are indestructable! You are strong!

Go Warrior Woman!!

What Would Oya Do?

... If she were in your situation, she would huff and puff in order to bring about a simpler life. She would welcome the winds of change and not be precious about what gets blown away. And, she would jump in puddles, chase rainbows and savour the calm after the storm.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Be still my heart

Patience: A minor form of despair disguised as a virtue. ~Ambrose Bierce

I wait. And I wait. I am in limboland...waiting. And I've never been very good at it...but I'm getting all kinds of practice now.

I wait for someone to purchase my house so I may begin my search for a new home. The anticipation of where this may be, when this may be...I want to start my 'new' life NOW.

I have searched, and waiting for my one true love to arrive. He is here now. I want to frolick with him all the rest of my days. To have the other stuff gone...so I can relax and enjoy his presence. I want to do that now.

"Why wait?...start now...this very minute. Live it." that's what my mind says.

In some ways I am. But with certain matters, beyond my control I cannot rush.

So...I wait.

I wait for a diagnosis. I wait in waiting rooms, doctors offices, for the specialist appointment, on my porcelian throne for it to be over. I wait for answers.

Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I wait for Sept 7th, 2010. I can almost taste the freedom of that day. 1 year. No longer married to it. Free from the mistake I made. Free to officially move on. No longer anyone's wife. Just me. I wait....

I wait for lawyers to do their jobs, I wait for my money back, for the day when she and I can do more than just argue, I wait for the rain to end. For a miracle to occur. I wait for some good news for a change. I wait for Sundays, and days off. I wait in my meantime. I work on my tolerance. I work on my patience.

I can feel it growing, I can hear it's sigh, taste it's sweetness, but I cannot touch. I can sense that it's just around the corner. I want to run out and greet it, give it a great big hug but I know I will just be disappointed as it won't be there...not yet anyway. I grow weary of this constant dance. Of this constant chase. Of it's constant teasing, just out of reach prescence. Time is slipping through our fingers...tomorrow isn't promised to any of us.

Perhaps there is a reason for which is unknown to me that I am being asked to wait...

I have no choice, no control over how long I shall have to wait.

I shall continue. I shall wait..and hope.

Good comes to those who wait.........